My Momma heart...this is hard right now...
Before I had kids, I always heard people describe it as having your heart walk outside your chest. I never understood that until I was a Mom... and to be honest... I never fully felt the intense magnitude of those heartbeats until I had teenagers.
These 3 amazing human beings are not children anymore, (as much as I refer to them as my babies). š¬š Two of them are driving now, one is considered a legal adult š±, and the ālittle oneā is taller than me and has a voice that cracks more and more each day. Sometimes when I look at them, I see these babies below. A glance, a mannerism, a childish gesture.... ahh my heart.
Over the last few years, they have walked through experiences where I simply couldnāt just put a bandaid on their knee and make it better. I couldnāt kiss their boo boo and say itās all ok. Thatās HARD. And lately, theyāre going through experiences that break their heart. Senior year is shut down, baseball season and the chance to be seen by colleges.. OVER. College acceptance, college rejections. MY HEART is literally beating harder everyday outside my chest. š
Theyāre going through not being able to see their friends, dealing with social media stuff I never dreamt off and trying to decide on their future paths. My heart beats louder. I canāt give them a bowl of Cheerios and say itās fort food anymore. I canāt distract them with bubbles, or a sand table or a treat.
BUT....... I CAN be there. I CAN listen. I CAN play silly games that they still love. I CAN let them know how much I love them. I CAN pray for them. I CAN have faith that God will walk them through these times when I donāt feel strong enough.
Ahhh my 3 hearts. ā¤ļøā¤ļøā¤ļø. Your beat will change the world. I canāt wait to see the plans God has for you. šš»